Welcome back Team David followers,
Happy Throw Back Thursday to everyone. This week keeps ticking off the calendar and the weekend will be here upon us before you know it. The sounds of thunderstorms periodically during the day and the deluge of rains were welcomed respite from the summer heat, besides the lawn needed a little bit more moisture added to cease the browning of the grass. A pleasant change in the weather to our normal fall temperatures is forecasted. Also, I have noticed Mother Nature has added a few more colors to the final summer palette of hues as the autumn easel waits in the shadows to take the stage next.
The new steroid medications I am on now seem to be doing a great job. I have been doing extremely well this week as the pain has but all disappeared and the inflammation on my right side has decreased. It’s a Catch-22 situation with me using the steroids. They do reduce the swelling and my pain, but they also increase my energy level to that of a hummingbird. My last systolic number was elevated to 101meaning more of my heart cancer is being spread throughout my entire body as more blood is able to pass through the tumor. The positive side is I am not in need of the wheelchair and I discretely placed out of my sight.
I have been dealing with my cancer for almost eight years now and it had not even occurred to me as many times as I have been in a wheelchair there were two distinct types: medical and transport. I am accustomed to the medical type in which the two big rears wheels are manually used for self-propulsion. I was delivered the transport style which features no method for self-propulsion therefore I am reliant on having an escort with me for maneuvering since I don’t have the ape arms needed to reach the smaller caster wheels.
I will be the first to admit there have been many things I had to learn on my own during my fight. Cancer is not a one size fits all disease. As your fingerprints are unique and different per each individual, so is the treatment of different cancers. I had to arm myself with as much knowledge as possible in order to understand it’s progression upon me. As the cancer spread inside from one organ to another, I soon found myself with the adage a little too much information can be a bad thing. The onslaught of new information, opinions, findings, and facts were too much overload for my brain to process. I decided only a few numbers would be of any importance to me: weight, systolic number, and complete blood counts for cancer enzymes levels. The other myriad of secondary numbers could be tossed aside into a secondary pile if I needed to access them in the future. I strongly believe by unloading the stress and worry of the number crunching has allowed me live a more productive, positive life.
The journey I am now on we all must take at some point in our lives and I can tell you firsthand, it is not an expedition I would want to take alone. I am grateful to have the caring support of Alive Hospice as they offer a variety of services to ensure I am as comfortable as possible, having the access to spiritual guidance if needed, and mental health check-ins to ensure the “dark side” has not started it’s encroachment on my positive attitude. Surrounding yourself with as many positive family members and friends is a must for anyone going through the trials of death to keep the dark side at bay. I am extremely fortunate to have so many I can rely on to help shoulder my weight.
I feel privileged inside of my heart of all places to have been afforded this unknown time I have remaining to do some serious reflection upon my life. I have gotten over the blaming stage of my cancer and I have accepted it is a yoke I have been burden with for a purpose. I have gone through the stage of shoulda’s, woulda’s, and coulda’s of life regrets. I am quite content with my medical decisions I have opted for in my quest to stay alive as some of these major decisions were sometimes guided by an unknown hand of trust. Maybe is why I am so positive and full of the zest for more life as I have lesser things for my poor little brain to worry about and I have more time to concentrate on my happiness which is my paramount concern.
Well good people, I need to get off of here and complete some indoors chores to get a head start on my weekend routines. Everyone have a great evening and stay dry.
Go Team David!
Stay positive until tomorrow…
“Nobody could’ve ever known I was positive because I didn’t know.”
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